Princess Myra is one!

Our sweet baby girl had her first birthday in March 17-

 Since she's our St. Patty baby we decided to go with a rainbow theme-

We invited the whole family and all of our friends! It was such a good time passing around our sweet Princess that believe it or not wore this little crown practically the whole time!

 I made this adorable little baby for her! Yellow cake, chocolate frosting, with a cute rainbow and clouds on top. I was so excited for her to tear into it and made a mess!

She apparently really is our little princess though because she barely touched it! I dunno if she was intimated by it, afraid of it, or what because I loves cake! So I dunno what it was about that particular day but we were all pretty bummed that there wasn't more of a show.

She had so much fun opening gifts and ripping all of the paper-

 She got this awesome wagon from her Nana and Papa. A lot of stuffed animals, puzzles, and other fun toys!

 A new baby and a tiny stroller. She loved pushing it but we had to be sure someone was with her otherwise she'd fall right on her face because the stroller is so light. She loves it though. Here's Papa helping her-

 Cannot believe our sweet baby girl is one already! So, so crazy! Happy Birthday Miss Myra!

March 9, 2013

It's not a significant date really, I just didn't know what else to title this post :) Although now that I look back at these pictures I remember that is a chilly day but we were so desperate to get out of the house that we bundled up and went outside anyway! Thankfully we had some sunshine because Myra and Cason were aching to get out on the playground. I swear this girl could swing all day if my legs didn't cramp up after 5 minutes of this-

 This little boy has no fear. He gets this teeter-tooter swinging and doesn't stop! Even when we feel like he's going to tip the whole playground! Absolutely love this shot-

 This sweet girl was on the move! She was incredibly wobbly without a hand but that sure didn't stop her-

 Cason asks me every day if he can climb our trees! As soon as his legs are long enough I'm pretty sure he might live up there!

 She stopped and inspected every stick and leaf! Next year she'll be collecting them!

It's fun to reminisce isn't it??

Mini Flashback

These pictures are kinda old but as I was going through pictures on my computer I thought they were too cute to skip so I'm going to add them any way! :) These were Myra's first year pictures that we got done at Fotofly in Draper. I highly recommend them if you're lookin' for a place to take your family.

 These first pictures turned out so great! I was worried that Myra would be clingy and wouldn't let me put her down but for the first backdrop she did great! She was laughing and giggling and had everyone Ooo-ing and Ahh-ing.

When we were ready to move to another spot I told the photographer that since she's starting to walk that I wanted to try to get some walking pictures. So we moved to the next spot and instead of me putting her down I could feel her gripping tighter! Her legs, her hands, her everything! I could not let her go! We tried everything and it all ended up in this-tears!

We got lucky with a couple other shots but none of them were of her walking, standing, or even smiling really. And I was next to her in all of them and the photographer kept them close enough that I obviously wasn't in them. *sigh* Thank heavens the first shots turned out so adorable!

 This was her last shot and it brings tears to my eyes every time. Love my sweet little girl...even if she did stress us all out for thirty minutes! :)

Look Ma, no hands!

As a Mom I say it over and over again, they grow up so fast! Pretty sure I said it just the other day as Myra stood up with no hands and then took six steps before she toppled over! Seriously, my baby, walking? Pretty sure I just brought her home from the hospital! But nope, sure enough it's been 11 months since that day came and gone. Now we're just 3 months away from that 12 month mark! 3 weeks from her own cake and ice cream, 3 weeks from her first big celebration, 3 weeks from no longer being my baby...3 weeks away from a lot of change! 

 Since Myra started taking all of those sweet little baby steps I have been trying desperately to get a picture of her standing on her own. Problem is she's either holding onto me so she's too close to take a good shot-

 Or, she's moving so much it's all just a bunch of fuzz-

 or she's got something' in her mouth! This one isn't too bad, she is clearly on her own two feet with no hands! Seriously, they grow up so fast (couldn't help it, it had to be said)-

 Other day I was giving Myra a bath and combing her hair and was realizing how long it was...long enough for maybe even little ponies? It took me some time to get them in but sure enough her hair is definitely long enough for ponies-

Unfortunately I didn't get a good shot of her with the ponies in either...today's mission!

Finding a new me

This is me, you all know me. But I wanted to share something that has been on my mind for weeks now and I've just gotta get it out! So I felt like it took all of my college years to "find myself", figure out who I was and what kind of person I was. I found myself, accepted myself, and even grew to love myself. I enjoyed being the type of person I was. I continued to grow older, have more experiences, got married, did more years of college; I moved out of state, twice; had kids, bought a home, and started a small business. Most of you know that I started selling Mary Kay recently. It has been an amazing experience that I have really enjoyed. I have gotten to know so many amazing women and I am so grateful to have them apart of my life and helping me succeed! But on this new path I have heard them describe me and say what kind of person and personality I am and it had me shocked! It wasn't necessarily bad or wrong things but I was saying to myself, 'no, that's not who I am', 'no, I am not like that', 'really, this is so unlike me'. And it had me sad that they saw me as someone different than I saw myself. 
  I came home one day from a full day saying, 'who am I?' It had me really frustrated, it's been on my mind for weeks! I feel like as I've gotten older and had more responsibilities placed upon me (kids, house, house payments, etc) I have kind of lost myself as a person. Is this normal, does anyone else feel this way? Am I still the same person but have lost a bit of myself or have I changed all together? I realize that we're constantly changing and evolving but am I totally different person now? Can I still be the person that I accepted when I was in college or do I need to re-find myself and accept and fall in love with the new me all over again? And if that's the case how often do I need to do this? Talk about exhausting! It was hard enough to do in college on my own and now I have to do it all over again?
  Now I feel like I'm almost forcing myself to be the person I was to help find the person I used to be. I want other people to see me how I see me, but now I feel like I'm working too hard. I'm heartbroken that I'm nearing 30 and am feeling so lost. Any thoughts to share?