Monday, June 17, 2013


Do you ever feel like you're drowning in...everything. In your to-do list. In your shopping list. In the to-do list in your head that you don't even have time to write down. In the things that you've been dying to do and are just waiting for things to 'calm down' so you can just think about doing them. Am I the only one that is constantly feeling this way? I'm always catching myself wishing for a day, just one day that I can have free all to myself so I can play catch-up. But let's be honest, a day? That would be a marvelous start but I don't think it would get me to where I want to be.
  There are so many hours in one day, how can I feel this way? Am I really wasting away so much time that I'm not even noticing where all of my time is going? I know all about time management. I know that you should schedule time for things and have everything planned out, all the little boxes filled in. I get it. It's a marvelous idea, I've done it a number of times. And it always looks good on paper but paper can't compensate for cranky, teething babies, or my 3-year old begging me to just do nothing but play cars and focus all of my attention on him. And I do those things. I put everything down for Myra and Cason. I really enjoy playing with them. I don't want to constantly be cleaning and running errands when I can be home or out and about with them making memories. Know what I mean? I try to spend time in all areas of my life. But I almost feel like I'm spread so thin that there's not a lot of left of me by the end of the day.
  But then how do I stay on top of it all? How do I do everything I want to do and still be the mother I want to be? Maybe that's just it...maybe you can't have both. Maybe that's just one of the amazing things that make mothers so amazing? I know mothers are constantly making sacrifices for their children, maybe this is one of those things? She sacrifices all of her time and being able to do everything she needs and wants to do.
  Eh. I dunno. I'm probably just rambling at this point but I hate this feeling of being constantly behind on everything. House work. Work work. Things I really want to do. Being the type of friend I want to be...everything! The list is so long. Do you feel this way? What do you do to help stay on top of things? Maybe there's a tip out there that I'm missing, that I need to be doing? I'd love some help on this one! Maybe there's a magical drink that could slow down time and give me an extra 5 hours a day? Or maybe a pill that can freeze frame every 7 days just to give me one. Wow! Wouldn't that be amazing?! Do you ever find yourself wishing that you didn't need to sleep for 7 hours every night? I so wish I could operate off of 4 hours of rest. Just think that would be give me an extra 3 hours a night! 21 hours a week! Almost an extra full day! Man, when I say that my mind races of all of the things I could get done in 21 hours all to myself!! Whoa, doesn't that just make your mind go crazy?! Does anybody else every wish or hope for crazy things like this? Haha, maybe I should just get back to cleaning the bathroom while the kidlets are still passed out.
  Thanks for listening :)


Telsha Winger & fam said...

It's funny you posted about this today and I came on. I haven't looked at people's blogs in forever for that very reason- when is there time really?! I wish I had some amazing tip as well and if you find any I would love to hear it, but know that yes, indeed, I feel the same way. I thought to myself today-now I understand why they say having three kids is hard-I can't accomplish a darn thing. Just trying to keep up with all their needs is about all I can handle. And I don't work at all right now; so to add that, you are amazing. Having kids and working is tough- I've tried.
I kind of came to that conclusion too- that something has to give- either the house has got to be messy occasionally or the kids have to be ignored and of course the kids don't allow you to ignore them :o I guess all we can do is pray and do the very best that we can. I love that quote from Elder Uchtdorf-

"May I invite you to rise to the great potential within you. But don’t reach beyond your capacity. Don’t set goals beyond your capacity to achieve. Don’t feel guilty or dwell on thoughts of failure. Don’t compare yourself with others. Do the best you can, and the Lord will provide the rest. Have faith and confidence in Him, and you will see miracles happen in your life and the lives of your loved ones." -Dieter F uchtdorf

I guess that's part of it we have such high expectations for ourselves and for our kids we don't give ourselves a break. Well, thanks for letting me ramble and ponder on that a little today! Hope life calms down for us both and we can cherish the little thing.

Lani said...

I have been feeling this exact same way lately... maybe it's the time of year??? ;)